Half-way there!

Well, even though there was a storm of enormous size, I was able to make it to my treatment this last week - which marks the half-way point for chemo...I have been up and down emotionally, and have been grateful for all of these days home with my family due to the snow...
We were able to go sledding on the BIG hill by our house, have FUN adventures in the snow for Maddie's 7th Birthday, and even had to re-schedule her birthday party for next weekend because of power outages...what a trooper!  I have the BEST family ever, and am grateful for their love and support...
I did get new boobs - I downsized:)  They are strange, but much better:)  I feel so fake when I wear them,  yet at the same time, they make me feel better in my clothes...oh, and about Erika, she's pretty much out - no offense to her, but unless someone shows me a way to make wearing that easy - it's easier for me to wear my peach-fuzz hair around with hats:)
Another bit of news - I tested negative for the BRCA gene, which leaves the fact that I got cancer so young a mystery...but good information and encouraging at the same time - as time passes, and more information is available - we may be able to find more out...for now, I am getting better every day!
So, 3 more rounds of chemo (which might mean lots more than 3 pokes because of my bad veins...) and then on to the next step...
So, today I remember that there is ALWAYS something to be thankful for NO MATTER WHAT!!!
Thanks for your continued thoughts, prayers, letters, meals, friendship, and LOVE!!!

Oh Erika...

Well, I wore my wig for the first time yesterday (her name is Erika)- yes, she has a name. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet-I like the way it looks-it's just such a strange thing...
Just like anything else- this will take time to get used to..
Feeling good today-it's ONE day at a time, baby...
Oh, Erika I wonder how long you'll last today?

2 down!

Well, I went in for my second of six rounds of chemo today...it went fine-except I have bad veins so finding one that will work for the IV is always a challenge...man, that really hurts...
My mom went with me this time-jasen came last time for my first one.
We stopped at the store and got a huge stack of magazines to keep us occupied-thanks, mom:)
So, hopefully side effects won't be too rough this time-it wasn't too bad last time-just really tired...
Thanks for your continued support and happy thoughts!!!
Hair status=almost ALL gone;(
Oh well, no brush, no bra, no fuss!!!

This is hard...

Well, I thought losing my hair would be easier and it's NOT. Jasen shaved my head day before yesterday and I was okay at first, but then looked up and started to cry;( yes, it's just hair-I know-but looking like this is tough. Lots more hair fell out today and yesterday-and it will continue;(
I am doing my best to stay positive, but for the first time it's been hard to...
I don't like this at all.
Thankful for supportive family and friends-couldn't do this without you:)

New Today!!!

Well, today I got boobs! It's great and weird all at the same time! I think tuis may take some time to get used to...

Lose hair... Next

Well, as I look ahead to the next week or do, I can expect to lose my hair completely. I'm really not that nervous and have already cut it short-I know when it starts falling out it will be strange, but I'm just thankful to be here, and be on a healing path!
Today, I got a wig.
It's fabulous, and its crazy.
Thank you mom -
Thank you sis.
Love you.

One down...

Well I had my first round of chemo today. After long deliberation, I decided not to use the cold caps after all. I have been lucky to connect with a gal who is going through the same thing I am, and she let me borrow them...after much thought-I just didn't want to deal with one more thing... It took a weight off my shoulders knowing that nature will just take its course. For those who may not know-cold caps can help you from losing your hair... I don't have a connection with my hair-and I know I will lose it-and I'm okay with that. Sure-it will be dn adjustment-just like having no boobs has been... But I'll be fine... Not sure is I'll do wigs-but hats for sure;)
So the chemo room is set up in a very open way-I ended up going back to a private room which felt more comfortable for me-especially since this was my first time... Chemo went fine, and I left 5 hours later feeling just fine-a little tired, but good;)
So here we go...
I think I'll go get a really short haircut this weekend so that when my hair starts coming out it won't be as drastic...thankfully my sis can do that;)
Oh, and a visit from my new neice right after my IV went in was just perfect;)
Thanks for the continued love and support-means the world to me;)