So, what's next?

Had my 4th round of chemo on Thursday - it went fine...only ONE needle poke!!!  WOW, that nurse is getting something special:)
I met with the doctor before treatment - found out that the doc I had been working with has been placed somewhere else with Providence...so I saw a very nice, retired doctor this time, and will meet another doctor next time...and so it goes...anyway, she was telling me (and Jasen) that 4 rounds of the chemo I am on doesn't necessarily make a difference in the long run, vs. 6 rounds (which was the original plan) - so now I don't know what to do...some research and time will give the answer hopefully...a little bit of an overwhelming decision I think...because I want to be as aggressive as possible, but will that really help???
So, in 3 weeks, I'll either have chemo again, or I'll start Hormone Therapy (Lupron), which I will have once a month for at least 2 years, and I will also start taking other meds for at least 5 years...these will put me into pre-menopause...another thing to think about:)
All a bit overwhelming, but lots to be thankful for...a beautiful, loving family...lots of great friends, and a great place to go to work each day:)
Let's keep taking this ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!!!!!

Half-way there!

Well, even though there was a storm of enormous size, I was able to make it to my treatment this last week - which marks the half-way point for chemo...I have been up and down emotionally, and have been grateful for all of these days home with my family due to the snow...
We were able to go sledding on the BIG hill by our house, have FUN adventures in the snow for Maddie's 7th Birthday, and even had to re-schedule her birthday party for next weekend because of power outages...what a trooper!  I have the BEST family ever, and am grateful for their love and support...
I did get new boobs - I downsized:)  They are strange, but much better:)  I feel so fake when I wear them,  yet at the same time, they make me feel better in my clothes...oh, and about Erika, she's pretty much out - no offense to her, but unless someone shows me a way to make wearing that easy - it's easier for me to wear my peach-fuzz hair around with hats:)
Another bit of news - I tested negative for the BRCA gene, which leaves the fact that I got cancer so young a mystery...but good information and encouraging at the same time - as time passes, and more information is available - we may be able to find more out...for now, I am getting better every day!
So, 3 more rounds of chemo (which might mean lots more than 3 pokes because of my bad veins...) and then on to the next step...
So, today I remember that there is ALWAYS something to be thankful for NO MATTER WHAT!!!
Thanks for your continued thoughts, prayers, letters, meals, friendship, and LOVE!!!

Oh Erika...

Well, I wore my wig for the first time yesterday (her name is Erika)- yes, she has a name. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet-I like the way it looks-it's just such a strange thing...
Just like anything else- this will take time to get used to..
Feeling good today-it's ONE day at a time, baby...
Oh, Erika I wonder how long you'll last today?

2 down!

Well, I went in for my second of six rounds of chemo today...it went fine-except I have bad veins so finding one that will work for the IV is always a challenge...man, that really hurts...
My mom went with me this time-jasen came last time for my first one.
We stopped at the store and got a huge stack of magazines to keep us occupied-thanks, mom:)
So, hopefully side effects won't be too rough this time-it wasn't too bad last time-just really tired...
Thanks for your continued support and happy thoughts!!!
Hair status=almost ALL gone;(
Oh well, no brush, no bra, no fuss!!!

This is hard...

Well, I thought losing my hair would be easier and it's NOT. Jasen shaved my head day before yesterday and I was okay at first, but then looked up and started to cry;( yes, it's just hair-I know-but looking like this is tough. Lots more hair fell out today and yesterday-and it will continue;(
I am doing my best to stay positive, but for the first time it's been hard to...
I don't like this at all.
Thankful for supportive family and friends-couldn't do this without you:)

New Today!!!

Well, today I got boobs! It's great and weird all at the same time! I think tuis may take some time to get used to...

Lose hair... Next

Well, as I look ahead to the next week or do, I can expect to lose my hair completely. I'm really not that nervous and have already cut it short-I know when it starts falling out it will be strange, but I'm just thankful to be here, and be on a healing path!
Today, I got a wig.
It's fabulous, and its crazy.
Thank you mom -
Thank you sis.
Love you.